Rachel Walther: Suspension

We're not quite ready. Things have changed so much while we were away. These past few years have been filled with incessant stress, illness, waiting. We carry a marine layer of gloom with us to our new happy fun occasions. We're supposed to start making up for lost time, but how do we reconcile moments of carefreeness with this new comprehension of no longer being? We need to tread lightly and be okay with it. It's all bad and getting worse, but that doesn't mean we can't hide away for a while over the horizon. There are still moments where it feels like the end of the rainbow—that exciting unknown something—is out there waiting for us.